Tuesday, May 29, 2007

one more

"oh my heart makes me dance"!

-riley (jumping off the back of the couch)

little words

"i like the talk of them. the sound of them.

the skin of them.

they're mixing up in love".

-riley (talking about her friends..our neighbors)




"roseheart rainbow cane.
the name of it is true luck.
the name of the rainbow.

cane is part of it.

know what the tree's name is?
tree stump wood.

the tv's name is chop wood black.
because it is made out of wood".

-riley (talking like a crazy person)

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

gone

really. what is the point? all secrets. all lies.
in my bones i don't believe you.
not a word.
in my skin i feel it. like blades and burns.
i hear it in every syllable.
no truth. just buzzing.
swarming
like flies.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

another day. another May.

another year.

28.

i feel the best i have ever felt.

i love my life. i love my job. i love my freckles. and the laugh lines around my eyes.

i feel alive and happy.

took long enough.

i won't make the same stupid mistakes i made when i was 27.

welcome, year 28. Let's do this right.

What i learned from year 27:

-listen to your intuition. not the words of people that lie on a daily basis.

-black hair= edgy and emo, yet hard to maintain

-i really love tacos

-why did i go so long without a vibrator?

-blonds do have more fun

-secret to chocolate cake= coffee and cinnamon

-being hired as a freelancer for your looks is ok, being hired as an employee for your kick ass producer skills (skillz) is much better...and i am still cute....cute with health benefits.

-vendor dogs. cream cheese. do it.

-i love being loved. who doesn't? but what i love more....being loved by someone i am inspired by. someone who is honest. someone who makes me feel like i am made of gold. someone that says things like "i love you for who you are. and i always will. forever. and i will prove it to you".

-don't loan people money

-polenta is good

-reading in the morning for an hour, with a cup of coffee, is a fantastic way to wake up.

-i should always buy myself flowers. i love them. they make me happy.



28. i look way better now than when i was 18. in fact, i am pretty fucking hot. i own a home. i love my work. and my friends. my family is amazing. i have money in my savings account. my daughter brings me more joy than i thought possible.

fuck yes. bring it.

Saturday, May 5, 2007

dreaming and breathing

the girl is back.

hold her like a secret. keep her like a dream.
these words are whispers.
no paper. no ink.
and they might just disappear.