Monday, December 17, 2007

my emo holiday

i have been listening to a lot of bright eyes this week. i had his christmas album once...but i have misplaced it....or some ex-boyfriend probably stole it so they wouldn't have to be tortured by my repeat blaring. man, it was good...i should buy it again. like, i had to buy ani's "living in clip" 4 times because it would mysteriously disappear or get totally scratched....i look back now and wonder if i had missed something.

"i need some meaning i can memorize. the kind i have always seems to slip my mind", conor.....yes.....

bright eyes pulls my emo heartstrings. he tickles that part of my soul that wants to wear a scarf and sit in the rain. he reminds me of a time when i defined myself by heartbreak, and when hurt meant something meaningful.....but really....when you look back....once you grow up and move on and find look back and think "holy shit that sucked. i was so miserable".

funny how there is something comforting about the pain from heartbreak.

it might also be dwelling in can feel profound and romantic to look back.

so...anyway. i made caramels. it was intense.
don't fuck around with 250 degree sugar.
also, don't binge on caramels. i had a sugar headache for 18 hours.

i really love cafe presse on 12th and madison. it is a little french cafe and i want to have breakfast there everyday. the hard cooked eggs....the yogurt with honey and walnuts.....oh man.

1 comment:

Tom said...

Kurt Cobain still said it best:

"I miss the comfort in being sad."