for tom

tracking down numbers. move after move. you tried to escape me. all i could do was follow. and hold on. move after move. and you moved on.

and you called years later. i stood in the rain. i couldn't tell you to leave her. but i think i did. and i wanted to try. to try. at least. and i said there are no guarantees . no guarantees. but i was pretty sure
you were meant for me.

but you ended it. that last call. i stood on the street. you were gone. gone. but you had been for years. now you were more gone. i guess.

and i still miss you. it's become something silly. like missing a dream. or a memory. and i am tired of missing you. so i am going to try not missing you. starting now.